'Boston' by Augustana. Great song.
Finally can say the words and mean it- I'm heading to BOSTON! on January 29th!!
first, let's get one thing straight for those of you who are assuming/wondering...I.am.NOT.moving.to.Boston.for.a.boy. if you want to know my reasoning, please ask me. i will gladly tell you. but that is all i have to say about that.
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Boston has been in the back of my mind as a possible place to live one day. it has my two favorites. the beach. and. the city. the boy i referenced up there moved to Boston almost a year ago now. i went to visit him in july.
july: loved the city. and the beach- not as good as FL or other places, but i'd definitely take it. i researched a couple human trafficking organizations and non-profits and was surprised to see there was an abundance in boston. it moved up on the list of places i wanted to move to.
august: while riding back to/from our first THUG bridal shower, i talked with jrm and srb about my trip to boston and how cool it would be to live there. they loved the idea and we talked about how we should live together and how great it would be. we decided to fast and pray for a little over a month, and then at the first THUG wedding, chat about how we felt about moving to boston in the summer (at this point i had school to finish, as well as srb-http://thecreativefight.blogspot.com/2011/08/new-adventure.html ). i was sure that during this time, i would see that moving to Boston wasn't going to happen/not a good option, and really thought the girls would not be on board anymore. BUT- i learned alot in that short month
july: loved the city. and the beach- not as good as FL or other places, but i'd definitely take it. i researched a couple human trafficking organizations and non-profits and was surprised to see there was an abundance in boston. it moved up on the list of places i wanted to move to.
august: while riding back to/from our first THUG bridal shower, i talked with jrm and srb about my trip to boston and how cool it would be to live there. they loved the idea and we talked about how we should live together and how great it would be. we decided to fast and pray for a little over a month, and then at the first THUG wedding, chat about how we felt about moving to boston in the summer (at this point i had school to finish, as well as srb-http://thecreativefight.blogspot.com/2011/08/new-adventure.html ). i was sure that during this time, i would see that moving to Boston wasn't going to happen/not a good option, and really thought the girls would not be on board anymore. BUT- i learned alot in that short month
september: read THIS- http://thecreativefight.blogspot.com/2011/09/month-without-non-christian-music.html) we decided to visit Boston in November and just check things out. i decided to start looking at jobs, maybe apply for a few and see if i could get any interviews when we visited.
november: met with 2 great women from to stellar anti-human trafficking organizations. was so encouraged after the last meeting that i was ready to pick up and move. so many great opportunities to do what i have wanted to do with human trafficking- advocacy work, event planning-- being surrounded by other passionate abolitionists. i feel more in love with the city. and i also found a few organizations that work directly with teen girls. One of the women i met with said that if i had something, a job, to get me out to boston, to go with that and then network and get a job when i get out there. sounded good to me. anyone who knows me knows i am passionate about fighting human trafficking and empowering young women, so boston was looking even better...
boston list: beach, city, lots of anti-trafficking orgs/opportunitites, orgs that help empower women, church i found randomly- love it.
end of november/december: i mainly focused on work and school. worked 2 jobs and happened to finish school, my astronomy class in 2 weeks!!!, by december 31- way to ring in the new year. i had been praying expectantly about boston and what to do once i had school under my belt.
january: i tried to relax. those who know me, know i am horrible at that. i started applying for boston jobs again. i was able to find alot that i am qualified for and that i want. my hope was to get a job by the end of january and be out there. i am not working at target anymore, which means i have one job, which means that in a week or two i would have to find another part time job- for how long? i'd be applying for jobs out in boston and working 2 jobs here. so, the beginning of last week, i had a thought- why not just move to boston, work the 2 part time jobs and then apply/interview for jobs- that'd be alot easier...
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november: met with 2 great women from to stellar anti-human trafficking organizations. was so encouraged after the last meeting that i was ready to pick up and move. so many great opportunities to do what i have wanted to do with human trafficking- advocacy work, event planning-- being surrounded by other passionate abolitionists. i feel more in love with the city. and i also found a few organizations that work directly with teen girls. One of the women i met with said that if i had something, a job, to get me out to boston, to go with that and then network and get a job when i get out there. sounded good to me. anyone who knows me knows i am passionate about fighting human trafficking and empowering young women, so boston was looking even better...
boston list: beach, city, lots of anti-trafficking orgs/opportunitites, orgs that help empower women, church i found randomly- love it.
end of november/december: i mainly focused on work and school. worked 2 jobs and happened to finish school, my astronomy class in 2 weeks!!!, by december 31- way to ring in the new year. i had been praying expectantly about boston and what to do once i had school under my belt.
january: i tried to relax. those who know me, know i am horrible at that. i started applying for boston jobs again. i was able to find alot that i am qualified for and that i want. my hope was to get a job by the end of january and be out there. i am not working at target anymore, which means i have one job, which means that in a week or two i would have to find another part time job- for how long? i'd be applying for jobs out in boston and working 2 jobs here. so, the beginning of last week, i had a thought- why not just move to boston, work the 2 part time jobs and then apply/interview for jobs- that'd be alot easier...
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i am a planner. i didn't want to go out there until i had a job set. roommate/apartment set. everything. i like to be in control.(usually, my plans are not what the Lord has planned...) i thought i was crazy for thinking about just picking up and moving. I had a few talks with friends throughout the week, just mentioned my thought, didn't say i was actually going to do it- didn't think i would do it. they all listened to my reasoning and said, 'it could be the best thing you ever do'- because my ending thought was, i'm nervous and scared and it could be horrible....so i prayed. expectantly as i had been. i think in the back of my head, i figured that i wouldn't be in boston. like the Lord had somewhere else for me and that i just hadn't seen it yet; i wanted to be really open to other places.
my bestie jrm came last weekend. i told her my thoughts. she gave me hers. i decided i should probably do it. but it wasn't official in my head until i told my mom. i told her sunday. i gave my two weeks at LOFT in the afternoon. decided to head out the 29th.
my bestie jrm came last weekend. i told her my thoughts. she gave me hers. i decided i should probably do it. but it wasn't official in my head until i told my mom. i told her sunday. i gave my two weeks at LOFT in the afternoon. decided to head out the 29th.
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that might seem sudden. the decision of when to go, yes, maybe. but i have been thinking about it for a while. see, if you read the other posts (i know i write alot!), you would find that i am restless, feeling stuck here in indiana. i know that i don't want a job here- it took me a while to realize that it is okay to want to go somewhere else- to want something different. i need a fast paced, city environment. i crave the opportunity to be in a place surrounded by other abolitionist, advocating, event planning, sharing about human trafficking. so many opportunities in boston. i crave the opportunity to invest in young women- empower them. opportunities in boston. i ache for a change of pace, for adventure. i already feel like this past year of doing school has made me loose my motivation- just a feeling of being stuck. that is not me. i am driven, a go-getter. i need challenges. i feel like i can't get it here.
that might seem sudden. the decision of when to go, yes, maybe. but i have been thinking about it for a while. see, if you read the other posts (i know i write alot!), you would find that i am restless, feeling stuck here in indiana. i know that i don't want a job here- it took me a while to realize that it is okay to want to go somewhere else- to want something different. i need a fast paced, city environment. i crave the opportunity to be in a place surrounded by other abolitionist, advocating, event planning, sharing about human trafficking. so many opportunities in boston. i crave the opportunity to invest in young women- empower them. opportunities in boston. i ache for a change of pace, for adventure. i already feel like this past year of doing school has made me loose my motivation- just a feeling of being stuck. that is not me. i am driven, a go-getter. i need challenges. i feel like i can't get it here.
this is something i feel like i need to do for me. i feel like the Lord has opened alot of doors, he has allowed me to make some good connections in Boston too.
no, i don't have a job 'secured.' but i am going to work at LOFT part time- and i got 2 calls yesterday for interviews when i get out there- starbucks (benefits at part-time even!) and a part-time big kid job. i am still putting out resumes, still praying expectantly.
no, i don't have a place to live. and i haven't met my potential roomies. my bestie in cali has a friend who is part of a church plant who is looking for someone to live with by the beginning of feb. and i met a girl on a christian web board who is moving there next week and needs a roommate. open doors. i have a good friend i can crash with from Cedarville for a bit if that all fails.
no, i don't have furniture for an apartment. and, no, i don't have loads of money saved up in case i don't find a job. i probably should wait and save more. but i literally could save forever. that means a second job. for how long. just to go out to boston and do the same thing? i am confident in the way the Lord created me and gifted me and i think/am having faith that the Lord will provide the part time jobs i need to survive out there. or the full-time big kid job...
no, i don't have a job 'secured.' but i am going to work at LOFT part time- and i got 2 calls yesterday for interviews when i get out there- starbucks (benefits at part-time even!) and a part-time big kid job. i am still putting out resumes, still praying expectantly.
no, i don't have a place to live. and i haven't met my potential roomies. my bestie in cali has a friend who is part of a church plant who is looking for someone to live with by the beginning of feb. and i met a girl on a christian web board who is moving there next week and needs a roommate. open doors. i have a good friend i can crash with from Cedarville for a bit if that all fails.
no, i don't have furniture for an apartment. and, no, i don't have loads of money saved up in case i don't find a job. i probably should wait and save more. but i literally could save forever. that means a second job. for how long. just to go out to boston and do the same thing? i am confident in the way the Lord created me and gifted me and i think/am having faith that the Lord will provide the part time jobs i need to survive out there. or the full-time big kid job...
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yes, i'm nervous. really scared. probably hasn't all sunk in yet. still thinking about money. and jobs. and everything else.
but when i play it all out in my head, it makes sense to me. even if i have to end up working 2 jobs to make my rent, if i can be a part of raising awareness on human trafficking or volunteering one day a week to empower a few young women, it is WELL WORTH IT. i feel like i can't convey how much my heart aches and longs for that other than to say that i cry when i think i can have the opportunity. that this past year or so of having very very limited opportunity to do it has made me feel like a part of me is missing...
yes, i'm nervous. really scared. probably hasn't all sunk in yet. still thinking about money. and jobs. and everything else.
but when i play it all out in my head, it makes sense to me. even if i have to end up working 2 jobs to make my rent, if i can be a part of raising awareness on human trafficking or volunteering one day a week to empower a few young women, it is WELL WORTH IT. i feel like i can't convey how much my heart aches and longs for that other than to say that i cry when i think i can have the opportunity. that this past year or so of having very very limited opportunity to do it has made me feel like a part of me is missing...
i also feel like the past 2 years or so, the Lord has really challenged me and prepared me. that any bad situation that comes, i have either dealt with it in some way or can trust the Lord to work it out. i'll put a couple verses at the end that have been on my heart lately. there is probably more details to share and i'd love to share with anyone who wants to know.
all i can say is that i think fear would be the only thing keeping me here- fear of failure. but, confidence in the Lord- that He has a plan and purpose, that he has never let me fall, is making me go. the fact that i don't know certain things, just makes me trust the Lord more and have faith that He is going to work out the details. and you know, if this isn't where i'm supposed to be, then i know another door will open. if i fail, i can always move back. i just feel like if i don't take this chance now, i might never take it and i'll always wonder...
i know some might not agree with me. say it is a bad decision, irresponsible. one thing i have learned and i think the Lord has really helped me grow with- listening to other people's opinions. yes, i like advice and i value the opinions of those i ask, but sometimes, people just don't know my heart, can't fully see what the Lord is doing. i know the advice is because you care, but like with the reasoning for moving. i know in my heart, it is not for a boy- i know the Lord has changed and healed my heart and no matter how many times i can explain it, people still might not see. with this move, people will probably say i am crazy, but i feel this peace from the Lord, i see the open doors. mostly, i see this as an opportunity to really take a leap of faith and trust the Lord in a way i never really have before. i feel like the past year and a half has been leading up to this point and i am excited (and scared!) to trust the Lord with this adventure...
stay tuned.
1 peter 5:10 (Amplified Bible version)
Psalms 103:4-5
1 John 4:18
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